Monday, August 16, 2010

Feeling far away

Our sweet Maddie Mae recently turned 11 months old. This event has taken me through some unexpected emotions. When I say that she is more fun all the time and I would not wish to return to her former stages I am speaking the truth... and yet there is a little piece of me that is always wondering if I am enjoying these moments enough, will I remember her sweet baby time well enough? While these questions have been a part of my emotional ups and downs the primary trigger comes when I try to figure out what we will do for her first birthday. I know that she will not remember this day but it is just getting harder and harder to think that none of our family will be around to celebrate her first year. Regardless, I will be baking cupcakes and making a special meal, we will have that picture of her tasting cake for the first time and allow her to make as big of a mess as she wants... but I am shedding some tears and feeling the miles between Billings and our families. My solace comes in the fact that we serve a great God with great plans and I have no doubt that we are here for a reason.

On a lighter note, Maddie Mae starting pulling up on everything taller than she is as soon as she started crawling and now has the ability to stand unaided for quite a while. Jeff has been wanting to capture this before she starts walking and here is what he just got :)


4 comments:

Tyne said...

LeeAnn, we miss you so! I really wish y'all did live closer, you know I would dance around like a clown and sing at the top of my lungs for your baby girl. I will be praying that God gives you peace and contentment in this season. Or moves you home ;)

APage said...

My sweet friend! I totally understand. We are in the same place, living far from family and thank you for sharing what God is teaching you. What a gift and powerful encouragement and reminder for me.

Vashey Fam said...

Yes, I miss you too! Family is one of the few reasons we have not moved to a cooler climate. It is so cool that she is standing on her own! Way to go Maddie!

Rebecca & Tucker said...

LeeAnn, I feel you! It's so hard when you are so proud of your little one and excited about their new growth and there's no close friends or family around to share with you in that! I definitely see how God is using us outside the Bible belt, but I can't wait till He brings us back to Texas.